CHAPTEr 17

a whole bunch of live videos and more…

straight from the boss himself

Pay a special attention to the music playing on the radio in the last video (23)

I'm driving on highway 20, the weather is nice, and I have plenty of ideas of things to add or change in the book. So, so as not to forget them, I record myself with my lovely pink cell phone... The rest of the videos will be in text-only mode/audio (I show them to you, you be the judge) or edited, if I decide to take responsibility and show my true identity (because I had no makeup or hair on !!!).

VIDEO 1.

Wait, what do I need to change? Ah yes, I was thinking about that earlier, ah yes madame Jeannette Bertrand, there is a point where I did not agree with her ... When she talks about the mix of races today, well her way of seeing things wasn’t going to work. What I wrote earlier, in her generation it was different an uncle of mine had that same mentality ... We have to change, we have to evolve.

(I later read the magazine in question and she didn't mention anything about us having to change, at least not until the last election I guess ...

(Video shot long ago ...).

Then what do I need to change? Ah yes, paedophiles, the way I named it earlier was wrong. I would rather say wood board nailer, those who leave traces of nails.

Also, when I talk about the Pope, with which I would love to talk to live in Italy, it would be to tell him that it might be time to change their laws and rules also. For instance priests should be able to get married, nuns too. One of the reasons way related to inheritance rules. Perhaps we should just change inheritance laws... Lawyers would do a better job then anything so far. Money isn’t everything. Vatican’s money should be invested solely in ventures which would be beneficial to all believers ... We are talking about belief here! I think that what the good Lord wants MORE THAN ANYTHING is for people to believe in him and in the afterlife. He wants to make sure Satan doesn’t steal any more souls from him huh?! It’s more important than gold and the Vatican’s treasures. Otherwise I have a secret to tell him ... It's the same secret I would tell Guy. A... (local talk show host). What else do I want to change?

Ah yes ! It’s important that I write it down ... That, oh yes, that at my local IGA (supermarket), While I was taking, for no reason, pictures of aisles, I met a girl who looked like a carbon copy of the only friend who ever hurt me. Oddly enough, on one of her hands, she has a drawings of wings, I don't know if it was angel wings, or bird wings, but she told me that she had wings now, and a scar in her hands. She said that my friend injured herself in our house. I must add it to the book…

Oh yes, I would also like to add about Madame Bohec, who’s hair I had styled when I worked in a hair salon, the one on whom I dropped the water hose onto and I was laughing like crazy ... well she's also an important person which crossed my path. She now has a shopping centre is now located on the street which bears her name in Blainville...

What else? Oh yes, I must learn to speak English if I want to update my project. I SHOULD also talk about the one thing I have close to my heart… Ah yes ! I would have to write also V for ____ and ... what's his name? Z for ____… (message to myself) that if I had kept my eyes closed while the song of the year played on the radio, If they read my book, well they know why now (I just remembered right then about the black eagle episode [p.139] that's why I'm troubled, that's it! Well, that's what I was thinking all along as I drove by.

Just so I don't forget, I took some notes when I stopped in a rest area to pee: I love you my love, I love you my son.

VIDEO 2.

I am driving with my cell phone on my thigh while I record myself. My social media project is going to be the creation of a site where everyone can help each other ... (Add this paragraph only after the site is online and all is patented).

VIDEO 3.

(Stopped at a second rest area ... I’ve been cursed with a little bladder, my brother too (he calls it his pea sized bladder!).

What is coming up ... that site is going to be...

This is how it started my idea of a play, I wanted to create a job. I had written a play which will feature several actresses, a bit like “les belles-soeurs des banlieues” a legendary play in Québec. LOL (…) I ended up writing a book, which ended up being a web book too. It was all written by the hands of God ... Now he will just put people I my path to help me.

(this was written a long time ago. Well hold and behold he has just done that now by getting me to meet people who have offered to mentor me. One in particular is the priest from my younger years. Well he appeared at the funeral of a uncle weeks ago, they were close friends. He came to me and told me he felt like he had to talk with me. I was so please that I told him about the whole thing while he listened respectfully, then gave his card and asked me to call him when I was ready to do so).

I am quite sensitive right now because ... it is beautiful all that will come... life is beautiful life and it's worth living. Despite the pain because…

THERE IS US AFTER THIS (LIFE)!

(wipe away my tears)… the crucial message given to us by God. He wants us to save our sole. And to do so, we must first believe that there really is a life after this one.

Today I going to pick up my little guy. I hope he had a great weekend. I told his daddy that I am picking him up in case something happens to us. I don't want him stuck in the forest ...

I've had a great life you know, full of great moments ... and I know what's coming will be even bigger ... hence my tears (of joy). And I don't speak English still! I'm going to have to learn it, Italian too, if I have to talk to the Pope! But he must know how to speak French! It is from the same root as Spanish after all. All I want too is for Quebecers to support me, since we are not racist as a society, I know that.

Phew! I don't even know what I'm doing anymore ... (I claimed while looking at the camera).

ALL I KNOW IS THAT I BELIEVE IN GOD WHO TOLD ME THAT IT IS NOT WITH MY BLOOD, BUT WITH INK AND PIXELS THAT MY STORY WILL BE WRITEN… and lots of songs!

Chante la ta chanson by Jean Lapointe).

VIDEO 4.

In a toilet once again,where I ran into a little girl who was all dressed in pink (Like me...). If she could have spoken she would have said:

"Why do you have red eyes ma'am? ". I would have answered that "I'm writing a nice little story for you darling, and the happy endings are just in the movies."

If I take off my rose-colored glasses, maybe there won't be a site where people help each other, where women from here could say to the ones over there: "Don't put on your veil girl (I meant 'burqua'), I want to see your beautiful hair. Where men from here would say to the ones from there: "You know, you can love your old man or your young depending on what he wants. We can get married between us if you want. As long as it is between adults, it can happen". NO MATTER WHAT people can say, WE ARE OPEN OF MIND, HERE IN QUÉBEC WHERE IT'S COLD.

I remember when I was little, Nostradamus scared us! A show by Michel Jasmin also scared me. I went to my brother's room and I was crying. However, it said that it would bloom again eventually. We have to believe in ourselves. Humanity is capable of great kindness, I believe in it. I too believe in happy endings. It's just that the book that I wrote (well it wasn't quite just me, I hold the pencil between my fingers since it’s my life I am writting about, but he is the one guiding the pencil, and I trust him implicitly as he has never betrayed my trust once! He knows what is good for us, he knows what is good for me! Even the most negative things in our life make us evolve! He's like a good daddy. Because there are plenty of good dads. I had one, and right now he is on the bench next to me.

They said it:

And in the "US" is my father who now guide us from beyond... With the angels and archangels. God is also righteous and good to all of us. You just have to believe, that is all. I believe in it more than anything. Life is beautiful, it is beautiful, nature is beautiful, humans are good, deep down inside. And God is proud of us, If he turns a blind eye to what we do sometimes... if we listen to him: it's entirely up to us.

VIDEO 5

(Windows open, hair blowing in the wind) Fashion Attraction by Jonas just played on the radio. Before I leave I must lookup for this song as I am going to put "Jonas Fashion Attraction" in the site.

VIDEO 6.

I try not to drive faster than my angel can fly ...

VIDEO 7.

I completely forgot to say that ... um before I went to Loblaws and IGA ... (Damn that I miss my Métro supermarket who was conveniently right next door but it closed)! Now to go there I must travel to another city of mine having closed), my son gave me a book to read ... In sacrament English !! “Two, five, four, six, zero, one, one…” LOL (…). I tried as much as I could but I had promised him not to discuss it with my friends. My first reflex was to write on facedeBook: who speaks English? I was thinking of Miriam and my brother, I wanted them to help me translate it.

I couldn't find a dictionary at home and I was angry at myself for not speaking English. I tried to read the “maususses” (bloody) words but I couldn't.

I spent some time at home, but I had to go to the grocery store! I also have to say that after that, I had a week where I was sick and in self-isolation (long time before covid) where my son read me a little bit of his story… in English. It was not easy for me to translate what he had written ... but was so good!

Importantly, I must talk about my bus dream story from this Thursday. It was before we had our little, little new bitch who came into our lives.

I dreamed that night that someone was getting on a bus. I said to my husband: "watch out because when I dream about this it's it means that someone new enters my life. But I hadn't seen who had entered ... So the next morning, on FaceDeBeauxChiens, I saw a little dog with big eyes and a big wig and I said, "Oh my god, I want a dog like that! ". So, on the day we had to go to the chiropractor, I somehow took a wrong path and got lost. So we called the chiropractor then we took a detour through Ste-Julie. On the way, my son told me to ask him questions about his book.

In short, he told me the story of his book… in English. It was so interesting that we have now reached the point where we have meetings in the car for him and me to learn more. He kept telling me his story, and I always wanted more, and more...

When we got home, Manon, our dog carer arrived. While we inside with Piwie, my son saw a little dog in the truck and picked her up, she kissed him… and she's been with us ever since.

Also, I don't want to forget to write about a discussion I had on July 13 in the car again, with my grown-up in the car again.

Again it was a Tuesday. Again we took a wrong turn. I don't remember for what reason it happened, but in any case we did not go to the chiropractor this time again but it turned into a meeting in the car.

That's where he told me about his "Pillars" ... All I'm going to say is that we discussed religion and it’s current status, the wars that the Catholic religion waged ... … What God gave us in the beginning… What he gave as a mission to Jesus and all that. I just want to talk about the pillars, just to give a “teaser”. The rest will be for him to do. (Write his own book) ...

I also wanted to protect my child when 9/11 happened. I hadn't even told him what happened ... But children today don’t take bull, they know why they suddenly can't leave the house and no longer go to school ... Parents have no choice but to explain these things to them.

But I think it depends on the child... For us, we turned off the radio, we shut off the TV (it was always at Teletoon), it was so disturbing! I really raised my son with Walt Disney. "It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all ..." (even truer today with COVID 19!).

… Again it was Tuesday. We have (again) taken the wrong path. I don't remember what reason why ... what happened, I don't remember anymore, I would have to think about it, but in any case we did not went to the chiropractor this time again! Maybe it was too bad, maybe, I don't remember. In short, it ended in a meeting in the car. That's where he told me about his "Pillars" ... I wouldn't say more in the book, all I'm going to say is that we discussed religion: where it was over today, the wars that the Catholic religion waged ... … What God had given in the beginning… What had been given as a mission to Jesus and all that. I just want to talk about the pillars, just to give a “teaser”. The rest will be for him to do. (Write her his book) ... I had also wanted to protect my child when September 11 happened. I hadn't even told him what happened ... But the children of today, they know the reason why they can't leave the house and we no longer go to school ... Parents have no choice but to explain to them. But at least I think it depends on the children ... We turned off the radio, we shut off the TV, it was always at Teletoon, I was watching it hidden away, in my room. (At that time, there was TV), it was so disturbing! I really raised my son at Walt Disney. "It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all, It’s a small world after all ..." (even truer today with COVID 19!)

That is what he criticised me for, when he became an adult, when he took off his glasses, he thought it was "tough".

He doesn’t have rose-colored glasses like me, maybe that's why he wants to change the world in his own way ...

VIDEO 9.

AAAAAAHHHH! Oh come on…. I am in Quebec city AH! Ah! Ah! (I scream that while laughing). Oh my poor baby is waiting for me in the wood!

VIDEO 10.

I had to go fill up the car... and of course pee ...

Then I wonder why I had to detour through Quebec city? Was it my destiny?

What direction is West “calvaire”., damn shit why don't I know that? Montreal is West from here I’m sure? Go west, go west bloody hell! Yeah West to Montreal! (I just found the highway’s entrance) ... That was before Google maps…

My fear of dying, sure receiving a message like I got (my GPS spoke to me) Bravo. I turned on my GPS on my phone (GPS talks) I hope she doesn't talk the whole time!

So, my fear of dying, started when the angels came to write on stone, the stone on the table, phew, it marked me so much!

A message like that would mark anyone! I wish I could deliver it personally to everyone... I see myself do it, I have to learn English before of course, but I have two bilinguals at home, they could show me that. I'm afraid of dying because ... (wiping a tear) although he is big my baby, he is not big enough in my opinion ... (To lose his mother) ...

When I went out on Father's Day with Claire d'Amour, she wanted to go eat some smoked meat, but we ended up at the restaurant next door. Our favourite place was full, then we had pizza. It was funny because I asked for a Quebecer pizza, and Claire was dressed in blue (Québec flag is blue). The lady in blue, the lady in pink, it looked pretty, there I could put Michel Louvain's song, but who would write the song of the lady in pink? Me ? It would be redundant, but in any case ... And then, she was so turned on that day ...

I told her the story of my book, the story of the angels and everything else I told her afterwards, but not then. She was in such a good mood ... (Her illness is well controlled, she is taking patches that currently prevent the disease from progressing.) At that point, she told me she could leave in peace, because she knew her baby was in good hands... from the moment he got married, well, she had peace of mindbecause she knew he was to live happily ... Maybe that's what I'm waiting for big one too? Well, that's what scares me to die. I have two babies right now, well three finally ... My book, which is ultimately my biography, the site I am creating, in my head, and on paper, that I want to patent on Monday. Because even though I put on my 3D glasses, I believe in it. Together we can all help each other. As I wrote, I can't remember too much there ... WE ALL HAVE FEARS DEEP INTO OUR HEART BUT TOGETHER WE CAN STOP OUR FEARS!

VIDEO 11.

I forgot to say that if anything happens to me, here are my last wishes ... I don't want to be cremated. I want to donate my body to science. Because with all the scars I've got, all the back pain I've been through, Surely they will be able to find something for that kind of pain.

(Forget that! I don't want them to laugh at my belly, naked) ...

Today, it hurts a little less. With the morphine pills they gave me every 2 hours and the "long-lasting" ones (I wipe away a tear), I don't even think that's it, I think it's Vladimir who was right ... Since I've been living with my mediumship, how did he call it? Missionary, missionary medium, well I hurts less. It is true that my son healed me from head to toe ... Worse his caresses on the back he gives me every time I walk near him, well that helps me greatly... Even if he tells me that he can do nothing more because my whole back has fused.

I really am a new woman ever since I started writing "the angel whisperer". I'm not the only one who healed, my ex-pusher quit smoking! ...

In Quebec, drugs have become commonplace, even I found it silly, it was common to smoke ... even if I felt guilty every time ... There was an actress that I really liked, I even sent her 100 times a handwritten thank you, Andrée Boucher, not to name her. I had read on her biography, it helped me a lot before I had my surgery. That she too had excruciating pain! I don't mean to say that marijuana is not good for those who are terminally ill, on the contrary ... It helps! But don't tell me the whole earth is terminally ill! The bloody drug cartels, we can stop them barnak! It starts with a small joint... There are people who destroy their health that way... (Me first) ... I tasted my first joint in Mexico. There it was part on everyday life... ls it now becoming part of our customs here in Canada?* A small beer is fine, it's on the supermarket’s shelf already... But I don't want cannabis to end up in convenience stores ... It hurts, it doesn’t go with most medication and yet ¾ of ill people take them anyway. In any case, it was clashing badly with my medication. In my opinion in a controlled place ... Worse, when my pusher found out I was taking morphine, he said: "I could have had problems with that !!! "...

One night as I was sleeping, I dreamed about my pusher which made me wake up abruptly. I wondered if I should name him in my book? While I was reflecting on it, suddenly a panel from my bed fell down! My husband and I jumped up in a single leap ... It just happened that it was my pusher who assembled our bed! (I never would have named him, but I got my answer)...

VIDEO 12.

One time, my pusher ... who was also growing plants, taking care of them ... a sign of fate, they started to make seeds ... That's what he explained to me. His whole harvest was over! All gone! He had to buy elsewhere, which cost more. Eventually he started charging more, and he was giving me less for the same price. This is where I started to get sick, coincidence? I can't remember, I'm driving, but I think that is a sign too. Well I haven't finished paying him now he told me yesterday, I still owe him. He did that to help me (he said)… I was in such pain, I really had a hard time walking, a hard time moving.

I was saying to my husband yesterday, "Did you notice how much I have changed? ". He puts it down to the pills. It’s not just that ... the doctor I used to go to also had hurt me. The pills I was prescribed before February drove me nuts, they made me sick. I was crazy esti, it didn't look good! I was not myself! Even before taking drugs: I've been taking marijuana only since February, tse. We are in July here ... In May, if we calculate that I finished in May when I was hospitalised.

VIDEO 13.

I know that I wrote about it earlier, but in the book, of 7 words I wrote, there were 7 that I didn’t write. that was hogwash, because in the end it wasn't me who wrote the book entirely. Every signs of fate: on the radio it was a Jonas song when I was there thought earlier, the words he said, the window that was open ... hair in the wind ... Everything coincided every time, all the time, all the time, all the time ... It's crazy ! It's crazy the spectacle God is giving me these days! It's so beautiful... MY LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!

VIDEO 14.

I would not also forget to mention Quebec beers. And the local water we drink, one which I had seen at the pizzeria restaurant. St. something from Quebec (St-Justin) is a carbonated water, better than water from elsewhere ... I would also like to say how indecent I find foreign companies to make money by selling us ... OUR OWN BOTTLED WATER! Even having the audacity to claim that water was not a free product!

the next era will not be oil, but wars for ownership of water ... And we have the DATA to strangers! (GPS take exit 220).

VIDEO 15.

I have always said that If the good Lord wanted us to detour through Quebec city even if we wanted to go another way, he would manage to get us to go where he wanted. But now,I’m like lost there! I was looking for St-Eulalie, that was what I had written on my little pink GPS, and finally ended up not far, but I wasn't quite there. I was stopped in a small convenience store thinking: do I go east or west? I'm going to St-Eulalie. I know the way as I went there numerous times. Next exit should be good. Well, maybe I had to see this little message conveniently written on a dirty car?

(It was written: "Jesus is the Lord").

* At that time, I didn’t know that Canada ended up legalising it across the country. Only good thing is that it is only available in Québec through liquor stores only).

VIDEO 16.

I forgot to say that the message was written in English, but I know enough English to understand ...

VIDEO 17.

I thought about taking a picture of the car, but we would have seen his license plate and I didn't want to look like a crazy woman taking a picture of the back window of a car, tse.

in any case I ended up taking the picture (it will be useful in order for people to believe me) while Parked in a Petro-Canada petrol station, I think, no it was ... I don’t remember which garage ... Bye ...

VIDEO 18.

It was written St-Eulalie, then spruce trees row... What is the Joke here? Now my son is going to be worried, what's the joke? !!! (Big sigh)…

VIDEO 19.

At one point ... While we drove him home to his father, we had found an AM radio station, a country western station. It sang repeatedly: "Go west, Go west ... sung by ...? ". We laughed so much, me and the kid. This is what makes me think that Montreal is always westbound ... I just did a Sacrament U-turn! (Sigh). Will we get home at some point?

VIDEO 20.

I don't want to forget to say how I announced my pregnancy, it was so funny ... I placed a “baby on board” sign on my belly and I was showing it to my family. After losing my first child baby, then 5 years, worse 5 years of tests and trials...

It was my sister's birthday and my sister-in-law. One on the 14th, the other on November 15th, we celebrated both birthdays together. I then lifted my sweater, and I showed it to everyone in secret one after the other ...

Shit the police are here! Ooooooh If he sees me with my (pink cell) in my car I am done (By hiding my cell phone. It was not yet prohibited but we were talking about it...

VIDEO 21.

I just had a good idea. As a teaser before the publication of the book ... It's going to be, I'm going to do, I'm going to play a ill person... and I will say: “remember my face well and then you will find me on my back of a book cover then I will say: “if you need help go to: www . ****. com, Link to the new social network". And then I want everything to happen at the same time. I'm going to put this video: on YouTube, on Facebook, on twitter. And I want the site to be online the next day.

Ah that would be great! Yeah! Viewed through my rose-colored glasses! (EXHIBIT 3.0 :)

VIDEO 22.

This song is good, can’t remember the name of it though (I want to record the song in order to do a research later for my site ... But the song finished before I could record iter ...) Oh damn... AAAAAH! Côlisse, Esti ... I almost got killed Tabarnak! Live too! You would have had my death live! My God ! Ah! I’m protected by the Good Lord! Oh my god ! AHHHHHH!

VIDEO 23.

(I scream)… The only danger with the 3.0: you must not hold a cell phone in your hands! As pink as it is ... AHHHH! Just around the corner ... (crying) Where was I going to get my boy? ... Then suddenly appeared from nowhere a big big ... a big John Deere tractor identical to the one my daddy was driving ... It almost crashed into me! Worse, there was a truck... (cries) stuck to my ass on top of it... But the good Lord protected me! I wouldn't be afraid anymore! No (cry). Behind me, we hear an ad on the radio talking about a subsidised show which will be broadcaster on the Hydro-Quebec site featuring a clasic by Robert Charlebois … I only heard it when I got back:

Si j’avais les ailes d’un ange je partirais pour Québec!

If I had the wings of an angel I would go to Quebec! Thanks my God, Challenge accepted ! If I had lights on my byc I would go to Quebec! Challenges accepted!